Between my period, bloating, cravings, and 3 day binges, my weight has been crazy up and down. I'm actually shocked its not more. I need to get out of this barely eating for 4 days, binge 3 days cycle. I miss the old days where not even considering eating food for days at a time was not problem. At one point this weekend I was up to 163, but as of this morning I was 157. Ugh I've been stuck at this weight for way too long. I wanted to be 150 by the end of June and 140 by the end of July, well guess what? Its effing August now and I'm no where close! I hate myself and my food-wired brain and that I need to depend on food. This weekend I'm going to my friend's wedding. She's 19, what the heck is she thinking?! He's older, but still! Shes a baby!
But anyways, I'm going to be seeing all these people from school and I don't want to look obese. I need to be at least 154 by Thursday when I leave. So I need to super careful in order to lose about a pound a day.
I ran 8.5 miles on Saturday, which I think helped my weight not sky rocket from all the junk I ate. But now I'm sore and achey all over and have no desire to run. But I need to!! Maybe I'll get my brother to run with me or maybe I'll just got to the gym. We'll see what I'm in the mood for tonight
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