Weight: 150
Do you guys ever feel just plain tired of everything?
Tired of feeling fat?
Tired of not getting what you want?
Tired of school? Tired of food?
Tired of thinking about every move you make?
Tired of feeling awful about yourself?
Basically: tired of life.
This week started off awful. I was an emotional wreck. I felt like all my roommates hated me, I was the fattest person alive, my self-esteem was just completely shot.
So I tried a new approach to everything: don't think about it. I tried not to stress about calories food, ate what I wanted when I wanted, exercised when I felt like it...It was a bizarre weird break. And it kind of worked, I started feeling a little bit better about myself. And surprisingly I didn't gain any weight, unfortunately I didn't lose either. I almost felt normal.
Alas, as always, things are short lived. I looked in the mirror today and though the scale says I haven't gained weight since yesterday, I looked like I gained 20 pounds.
Is it in my mind? Or is it reality?
I feel just plain sick now. I regret eating everything I touched this week and am re-motivated to lose weight. My parents are here this weekend so I won't be able to start tomorrow or Sunday. But Monday my weightless journey starts anew!
I need a support buddy to text and keep me motivated! Anyone willing??
Do you guys ever feel just plain tired of everything?
Tired of feeling fat?
Tired of not getting what you want?
Tired of school? Tired of food?
Tired of thinking about every move you make?
Tired of feeling awful about yourself?
Basically: tired of life.
This week started off awful. I was an emotional wreck. I felt like all my roommates hated me, I was the fattest person alive, my self-esteem was just completely shot.
So I tried a new approach to everything: don't think about it. I tried not to stress about calories food, ate what I wanted when I wanted, exercised when I felt like it...It was a bizarre weird break. And it kind of worked, I started feeling a little bit better about myself. And surprisingly I didn't gain any weight, unfortunately I didn't lose either. I almost felt normal.
Alas, as always, things are short lived. I looked in the mirror today and though the scale says I haven't gained weight since yesterday, I looked like I gained 20 pounds.
Is it in my mind? Or is it reality?
I feel just plain sick now. I regret eating everything I touched this week and am re-motivated to lose weight. My parents are here this weekend so I won't be able to start tomorrow or Sunday. But Monday my weightless journey starts anew!
I need a support buddy to text and keep me motivated! Anyone willing??
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