The Good the Bad and the Ugly

Today's weight: 158.4

But today was such a BINGE DAY! I ate only CRAP. It made me feel so sick. Seriously, I had the worst stomach pains and had diarrhea. It was disgusting, just like the fat on my body.

-Cookie dough
-A Waffle
-Licorice
-Chocolate
-Grapes
-Honeycomb cereal

So i'm sure I gained at least 1 pound back... My stomach is complete C-H-U-B.

Breaking 160

So I broke 160, 159.2. Whoo, I'm excited for when I break 150 and then 140. I wish it'd come sooner!

I tried to eat a little more calories today since I barely ate everything yesterday.

-2 small peaches (62 calories)
- 1/2 cup Honeycomb cereal (43 calories)
-2/3 cucumber (20 calories)
-Sugar Free jello (10 calories)
-1/2 cookie (75 calories)
-1 can corn (210 calories)
-5 grapes (15 calories)
-1 cup Honeycomb cereal (86 calories)

TOTAL: 521 calories

While at work today I was eating my cucumber and jello and I couldn't even finish my cucumber i felt sooo full. It was such a cool feeling.


Even though I've lost 7 pounds since coming back from college I don't feel that much different. I think maybe the fatter you are the less noticeable each pound is. Bummer.

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Today's Endeavor

So today went fairly well. My weight still checked in at 160.2.

I didn't get to exercise because my gym is closed but I didn't eat much either!!!! And it feels so good, I'm not even hungry anymore. Skyping with my friend really distracted me and now my stomach almost feels like its full. Its an awesome feeling knowing you have the strength (again) to say not to food.

-Grapes (110 calories)
-1 cucumber (30 calories)
-1 Altoid (3 calories)
-2 Frescas (0 calories)

TOTAL: 143 calories!

Bad Day

So heres what I ate today:

-Diet soda (0 calories)

-Celery sticks (25 calories)

-1/2 piece of Boysenberry pie (350 calories)

-2 BBQ chicken drumsticks (200 calories)

-Jalapeno potato salad (300)

-Grapes (110 calories)

-One Hershey nugget (45 calories)

TOTAL: 1030

Wow I feel disgusting, I feel like I have a beer belly. It was the fricken pie, I didn't know it 700 calories per piece!! No wonder it tasted so good. Ugggghhh. And my gym is closed all week :( and I still can't run because of my IT band. Danielle and I are going to walk 3.5 miles, but its not the same :(

The only good news is that my weight was at 160.2 today.

I NEED TO STOP BEING SUCH A FATTY.

I feel like I look like this:

Proof!!

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I need to look like this. One day, my dears, one day.

Memorial Day

Its so hard to avoid food on holidays at my house. My mom cooks up everything tasty and its extremely obvious if you are not eating. So I had to eat "normal" today for them. -I had 2 bunches of grapes and 12 almonds for breakfast.

-Went to the gym and and hour on the elliptical (600+ calories) and weights

-Dinner: LOTS of fruits of vegetables and a little bit of BBQ chicken

-Snack: A few bites of pie

I wish I hadn't eaten the pie or chicken.....

Bust

So today I started out eating not that bad, I had healthy food for dinner...but then dessert came around. I ate homemade ice cream and a million Oreos. I was AWFUL. And now I'm bloated and feel disgusting. So tomorrow's plan is:

            1. Work out hard

            2. Eat nothing until dinner

            3. Eat fruits and vegetables for dinner

            4. Consume as much water as possible

Darn Food

So I feel like I should feel a lot better about myself then I should right now. I went to the gym, did the elliptical for an hour, and then lifted weights and did abs for like 40 min. I burned over 600 calories there. I didn't eat anything all day until I went out to dinner with a friend. I ate a lot and felt really sick after. But even now, hours after I ate I feel fat and gross.

Note to self: Do not stuff yourself silly EVER, especially if you haven't eaten all day. You'll ruin all the hard work.

I wish I could just throw it all up but I can’t for several reasons…

     1. I promised myself no matter how desperate I got I           would never use vomiting as a way to lose weight.

     2. I’m a teeth freak. The acid in my stomach will ruin      my teeth and make them yellow.

     3. It’s noisy and easier to discover.

*But tomorrow is another day to redeem myself.*